I’m just writing this post because I am semi freaking out about my 5K. Yes I have been running and I should be fine. But I keep having this doubting voice in the back of my head saying, “You can’t do this” and what if I can’t? Everyone will laugh. I’m going to be so disappointed in myself. I dunno. I’m really am scared, dreading it, and super pumped about it all at once. Also my stubborn weight loss is bumming me out too. I’ve actually gained a few pounds. (wtf?!) I have eaten just over 1200 calories a day and all very clean things fruits veggies oatmeal, making sure I’m getting protein. All good things.And I work out so I can eat over the 1200 diet but still am eating enough for my body to function. Yet I’m gaining weight?! I hate my body. Okay I shouldn’t say that. Body peace is goal here. Its just frustrating. I wouldn’t care if I just maintained even, but no, I’m gaining. I feel like the minute I’m not eating 1200 calories a day, I’m going to swell up like a balloon. =/ Its one of those days I just want to quit everything and not run and not do the 5K. =[
I wish I had some hope, but I feel absolutely helpless right now. =/
So my scale is broke. Darn it! I have to go buy another one =( Why but college be so expensive?! But I am off to leave for a summer camp I work every year. Be back in a week.
My concerns are eating healthy without being able to take the time and prepare my own food. To count all the calories. I know I can still rock oatmeal and breakfast. Thank goodness. So that should help some. Then salads at dinner and smaller portions. Do any of you have tips for this situation? We have planed meals and in a mess hall but I really really don’t want this to be the reason I mess up. And I can’t even track it! ugh. I’m so nervous. Help weight loss friends!