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Wardrobe & Weight Loss: A New Adventure In Sewing

Over Thanksgiving my diet has been wobbly to say the least. I lost the weight from my binge. Gained it. And now loosing it a bit. Lord help my yo-yo diet and weight. But onto the topic of this writing!

I was lucky enough to so something really cool over break, sewing! My grandmother is actually in town for break and we spent some time together doing some sewing. She helped me do some prep, but for the most part with her instruction I did the work. I mended 1 sweater and a skirt. I MADE a brand new  skirt. Hemmed and took in 1 pair of jeans, 1 pair of dress pants and a T-shirt. For those of you who don’t sew, that was a solid 4 hours of work. That was with 2 people! I was on a mission!

Quite honestly, when you lose weight, hell when your weight fluctuates drastically up or down, NOTHING fits. I mean absolutely nothing. As awesome as it feels to have clothes be baggy on my new healthier body, having nothing to wear is such a struggle. Waking up in the morning and trying to dress myself in droopy clothes is frustrating. Also, because I know I’m in the middle of my transformation, I don’t wish to go out and spend a ton of money on new clothes that won’t fit in a month or so.

That is why me learning to do even some basic sewing and taking clothes in (yay for shrinking) is a HUGE blessing. I highly encourage those of you out there who are loosing weight to try your hand at it if you can. I mean, if I didn’t adjust a lot of these clothes, I would have thrown them away anyway, so might as well try sewing them. It really isn’t too hard if you go slow and aren’t picky. haha. There are millions of tutorials online if you’re wondering where to start. Long story short, I saved money and expanded my wardrobe by learning (attempting) a new skill. One I hope yo continue and utilize on some of my other pieces of clothing to help save me money as I go.

Hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving,



Fat to Fit Series: Thoughts On Diet/Nutrition (Part 2)

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Thanks for continuing on with part 2. Glad you came back to read my second post!


Drink water like you just finished running a marathon through the Saharan desert after eating a whole thing of saltines. Make that a whole box, not just one of the packets inside it. This is one of the few things that all dietitians/nutritionists actually always have and probably always will agree on. The human body can vary from being 55%(avg female) to 65% (avg male) water, and in infants it can be almost 75% (crazy!). The typical person is actually dehydrated and a large portion fatigue can be eliminated by doing this simple thing. It is suggested that you drink eight 8oz a day, with an additional oz of water for every oz of soda, caffeinated beverage, sugary drink you have.

2-It’s All About Balance

Eating nothing but veggies, and spinach salads with vinaigrette on the side for extended lengths of time can be boring to the healthiest of us. Not only is this diet not sustainable but it also causes you to miss out on key nutrients when it comes to balanced meals. Believe it or not we as humans NEED fat in our diet. It would also be extremely hard to get your recommended daily protein from celery. If you do, well you’re just awesome. When it comes to macronutrients for someone who is not making adjustments to their diet to bulk up or change for dietary health concerns given from a physician, it is suggested that 50% of whatever you eat should be made up of carbs, 30% fat, and 20% protein.

3-Not All Calories Are Equal 

Just because your granola bar is 100cal compared to the other type that is 300cal doesn’t mean either of them will fill you up the way a 70cal boiled egg will. When it comes to diet, it’s about what you’re eating. Amounts and portion control DO factor into weight loss and health, but I promise you that eating less processed food and more veggies, fruits, complex carbohydrates and protein will help you function better and achieve health goals quicker. Its simple fact that the more protein you eat in your diet the less hungry you feel. Also, eating complex carbs(fiber/starch based) will have naturally greater health benefits as far as nutrients go due to being plant-based when compared to simple sugars. Finally, sugars from fruit doesn’t equal sugar from cary and pop. There is a reason your blood sugar doesn’t spike from grapes and apples the way it does from an ice cream cone.

4-Everyone is DIFFERENT

I don’t care if you’re a cloned from a somatic cell, your biochemistry and metabolism is unique to you. You are a unique little butterfly in this sense. The person sitting next to you, they have a completely different make up than you do. The reason diet A, makes person #1 lose 10lbs while you only lost 2lbs may on some level be because it’s what just works for them and not you. Thats why a lot of extreme diets don’t work, regardless of if the weight loss and diet is sustainable for life. Unfortunately some of us are not as gifted in the metabolism department for whatever reason. Blame it on genetics, blame it on sedentary life, blame it on set points….it doesn’t matter. We are dealt the hand we are given and have to deal with it. The good news is we have options and trial and error is what it may take. But intake control mixed with moderation and exercise can help you achieve health goals that you have. It isn’t impossible, just difficult. But you can do it!

Thats about it for now,

Much love to you all.


ps-I am not a dietician nor am I a physician. This is not medical advice just suggestions from a dieter who has lost significant weight the healthy way….gained it…and it loosing it again.

Dear Skinny Girl At The Gym

Dear Skinny Girl At The Gym,

Yes you. The one with the sports bra. You with the super tight legging/yoga pants. You who wears barley anything at the gym. I’m jealous of you.I wish I could feel that confident anywhere, let alone in a public place like the gym. I’m jealous of your body’s ability to move. How easily you glide past the miles. How you make it seem like running is nothing. I’m jealous of the lack of weight you have to push through. I can’t help but think, if you have the added pounds that I do, would you really be so eager to run? Would you really want to go to the gym as much as you do. That few miles I do are freaking hard! At least hard for me. Hell, showing up here with all the beautifully fit bodies to judge me was hard. I’m jealous of how you’re able to come without worrying who is around. Heck, you might even like the attention with your fit bum and tight abs and pretty arms. I long for that feeling. I hate how I feel everyone is watching the fat girl run.

I wish to be you skinny girl. I really do. I’m trying.

-Signed a fat chick at the gym.

A Mothers Approval-An emotional, honest, and raw post

Sometimes all you need is a mother’s approval. 

So, currently sitting in Panera writing this getting ready to bunker down and do some homework. Unfortunately  I am sitting at a big table for 4 when it’s busy because there were NO OTHER CHAIRS so I look like a jerk. Dear, Panera goers, I am NOT A JERK. There were just no other tables! I swear.

Anyway. I just felt the need to write this post because of what just took place. My mom said “Good Job” for the amount of weight I’ve lost. This is the first compliment my mothers has given me about my body. This has been the first not backhanded compliment/encouragement she has made since I’ve started this journey. She was dropping me off  at Panera while the oil in my car was being changed. She said she was looking at old pictures of me and my sister, and it was amazing to her, the amount of weight we’ve both lost. “Good Job”. I just nodded back a bit dumb founded and not sure how to react. My mother and my relationship is a bit complicated to say the least.

Some Back Story: She has always been thin and beautiful one.She is my superhero. Not many people can say their mother went back to school while working part time and having 2 children both under the age of 3 with pets. Though I know she loves me, growing up she has been somewhat wrapped up in her own life. I went through a really rough time with both my parents once I got past the age of 13. I have had random moments of depression and a lot of my own issues that they never really knew about. Partially because I didn’t tell them but partially because they didn’t care to know or address it. Its made me and my parents relationship somewhat distant and weird. Since coming to college it has gotten better, but it is far from ideal. Most of that is because I honestly hold back and keep to myself, but if it keeps the house peaceful I’m for it. I wish I could say that me and my mom are best friends like Rory and Lorelei Gilmore, but we aren’t. Its just a fact. I wish I could share things with them, but its just not our relationship.

Back to the present: I’m sitting just confused about what took place. Any time my mother has commented on my body, before or after weight loss it has always been about how I could lose a bit more. Or how I could eat better. Or where I could get connected for help. Or how some article of clothing will look better in a few months. She has always tried to keep improving me. She means well but with my body issues and probably a mix of me being sensitive its taken a toll on me. I’ve never felt that she has been very happy with me. Please do NOT critique my mother, its my own feelings that need to be evaluated here, not her.  I’ve never felt like I could ever just be enough with her. I don’t think she has meant to do this and I know she loves me but its been hard. For a long time now I have been wanting her to make some sort of positive comment. Even more so with my weight loss. Just say one good thing about how I look nice not that I need to keep going. Trust me I KNOW I need to keep going. I’ve just been waiting for what feels like for FOREVER for this one little thing. For her stamp of approval.

Sitting in Panera now I realize I have been subconsciously striving for my mothers approval for what appears to be years. Its so obvious to me now. I’ve ached for it even more since my weight loss started since this past summer.Thinking that once it’s gone I’d finally be enough. Looking back I’m realizing that when that compliment never came this past summer/fall, I finally gave up on ever hearing it. After losing so much weight she still never said it. What else could I do? I came to terms that I needed to accept myself and let that be enough. But as I write this I find myself on the brink of tears. She said it. She finally said it, and I have this raw hallow ache in my chest. Its so hard to explain. I don’t know what to say or how to analyze it. But I knew I needed to write it down, get it out, tell someone. Even if its just a computer screen. Not sure if its a happy or sad feeling, but its a feeling all the same.

Sometimes all you need is a mother’s approval. 

Quick weight update.Still going good. Eating healthy. Been sick since spring break started so havent been able to hit the gym the way I wanted. With this cold though, there was no way. Almost to those beautiful 170s!

With peace,


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:182.8lb4

Weight loss so far: 52.2lbs

Meeting a trainer-Self consious

Spring break has given me a chance to focus on me, my diet, and exercise. Its great because during midterms there was no time and it wasn’t even a thought in my mind.

Today I am actually going to meet a trainer to see what we can do about my arms. Super excited but nervous all at the same time. I find myself getting those same feelings I had last summer when I first started working out. You know the feelings. The one saying everyone is judging you and how fat you are. That the trainer is grossed out by you. People at the gym are all staring…ect. I think this thought process is a large part of the cycle for obesity/overweight epidemic in America. Gyms are freaking scary and judgmental places for overweight people. Even if they’re not watching you, and no one probably really cares, it still feels that way. I will admit there are times I just hope I disappear into the corner during my run and no one will notice. Now, I can’t speak for everyone but it seems to be a recurrent theme with people new to exercise or just body conscious.  Anyway. Mini rant over.

I’m going at noon and am excited and trying to keep focused. But it doesn’t help that she described herself as short small blonde with blue eyes. She sounded super sweet on the phone but who wants to work out with Barbie? Seriously. I don’t know. Im just being insecure. I might love her. I need to just relax.

On the upside I’m back where I need to be and then some after my slip up! A full 51lbs off me! Thank goodness. Now to the gym!


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:184.0lb4

Weight loss so far: 51.0lbs

What I “Use” For Weight Loss

Hey everyone!

So I got an interesting message the other day asking about what things I “use” to help me lose weight/keep me motivated. Looking back I used/currently use quite a few things.

A liar


When I started running I used Coach to 5K app. It works great for some, but for me it actually slowed me down. Some days it was too hard to finish and others it was like cake. The way it accelerates just doesn’t fit me. Though, I’ve known people who have been amazingly successful on it. I just went with the push it strategy. I signed up for a 5K and that motivated me to run so I didn’t look silly in front of people in 3months. It does a good job of training people to do a warm up. I don’t run without at least walking at a fast pace for 5 minutes. Its taught me the importance of warm ups.


I had to basically teach myself how to work out. Not the running portion more the weights. The internet has a TON of useful information. Pages like Pinterest, Youtube, and blogs just like this one. The more I educated myself the more effective my work outs could be. It can be hard to pick through some of the crazy things. Realize that the fad diets as well as the one exercise that will help you lose 50lbs is made up. This journey is a long hard one and you just have to work for it. The only other thing you have to watch out for is to make sure all the exercises you’re doing is safe. Injury to the body is only going to slow your weight loss down. So make sure you’re taking care of it!



Also when learning how to eat healthy/better/cut calories I used myfitnesspal app. I cannot rave about this app enough! It has helped me in so many ways. First I started with simply eating less and cutting my calories. But in this app there is a “weekly” outlook for calorie amounts. So even if I messed up a day it keep me focused on a small “long term” goal of the week. In addition to that it has two tabs one listing the actual “numbers” of what you’re eating like 24 sugars out of the suggested 168g a day. The second tab on it is a pie chart of the day. It visually shows you what percentage of your food is protein,fat, and carbs. This helped me actually eat BETTER. Noticing I didn’t have very many carbs one day helped me chose a dinner plate with more to help balance out my eating. Also you can see how meals affect your diet for the day prior actually eating it. Again another way to make healthier choices. I slowly shifted from eating less calories to eating healthy calories. In addition to the food portion, it has the ability to subtract your calories for work outs and track your weight and measurements as you go. All this in one little convenient spot! LOVE ITI had a weight waters scale that measures to the .1lbs. This has really helped me see the changes in my body no matter how small and I am grateful.


As far as accountability goes I enlisted a few different tactics. One, I wrote out my goals. Here and a few other places. Two, I told my friends. The more people who knew the more support I got as well as helped me make healthy choices while dinning out. Or at least tried being considerate and making sure their is a healthy option at their party. I am brutally honest with myself and write it here. Forcing myself to tell you all has made me want to keep up my goals. I spent money on my race I signed up for so I didn’t want to back out. Also, Pinterest has a million and one health pins. From exercise, healthy meals, as well as motivation quotes and tools. Finally, other’s weight loss journeys helped inspire me so much. They make is seem so much more doable than like this crazy unachievable goal. Thank you for everyone who is open about your journey, it has helped me tons!

The biggest thing why my weight loss has worked this time was my mindset. I am doing this for me and getting healthy. Not for vanity, because other people tell me I should,

Also, still going strong!!! See below.


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:186.8lbs

Weight loss so far: 48.2lbs

Stepping on the Scale day 1

So after a decent-ish weekend of working out and such I decided to weigh myself to see if I got the week one drastic drop and I did. Yay! Its only been 3 days and I lost 1 lb. Granted its week one and I usually loose the most weight at this time I need to try to keep in mind that it won’t always be like this. To keep some perspective I reread my own weighing in on weigh-in post. I suggest it if you’re someone who tends to struggle with the number on the scale. Don’t worry, we all do.


I think my next post is going to be regarding cravings since I’m having them up to the yin yang today. Ugh. Week one for sure.

Here is to another day of being happy healthy and alive. 


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:189.0lbs

Weight loss so far: 46.0lbs

So finals are upon us. I am sick with mono. I’m loosing some weight not really trying just making the voice to not eat crappy.Its crazy to think I have lost 45lbs so far. Thats a small child. A SMALL CHILD. So glad its gone…now to loose another small child. lol. Its a long way to go. Holiday food scares me. Just have to keep making healthy choices.


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:190.0lbs

Weight loss so far: 45.0 lbs

The vow-day 5 Surprising Scale Movement(40lbs later)

So today started out with a surprise! I have been dropping weight rather quickly(Which never happens) and yes I have been eating enough and yes I have been working out and doing this all the healthy way. I measure in the mornings to avoid water weight. But according to the scale in 5 days I have lost about 6 lbs. I’m thinking its a mix of when I was eating “bad” I have been eating the better choices of the bad. Does that even make sense? As well as I dropped to 193 the week before gaining again. So I’m wondering if that has anything to do with it. Like its easier to move weight that didn’t exist before? I don’t know if there is any truth to that. As well as I think I’m going to get my period next week so maybe thats why my weight has been so stubborn and suddenly shifted? Sorry, thats probably TMI but oh well. I’m just hoping it stays off.

However, it puts me at the end of my summer as 40lbs lost. HOLY CRAP! I NEVER ever thought I could do that, ever. Not in my wildest dreams. I’m now out of the obesity BMI standards and 40lbs lighter. yay!!!! I’m so excited. I am like dancing around the room excited. I still have a long way to go, but its still an improvment.

My work out today was a bit hard to start. I started on on a walk run treadmill finishing a mile. Then ab work and then decided I would not accept such a crappy run. So I hopped onto the treadmill again and rock a 2.1 walk run. HECKS YES! Finally something to feel good about. Even though it was somewhat slow, I just am happy everything worked out.

I had oatmeal for early breakfast, then a breakfast sandwich later because I got up way early and was super hungry. Went to class. Had pretzels as a snack. Went to work. Worked out. Staff meeting, and now I am about to go out with my staff for team trivia at a pizza place. I have decided I will indulge just a SMALL amount only.

Thoughts after dinner:

Didn’t do so hot. My boss bought a ton of appetizers for the table and that way no one had to buy. But because of that I just couldn’t say no. I had a potato skin, 4 cheese sticks, chips with salsa and avocado/artichoke dip. Crap crap crap. So glad I did the extra time at the gym. Tomorrow is my day off. So I have to get a few things done, then I just need to go hard at the gym. Laundry. Organize and clean to move.

Hope you’re all doing well.


Day 4

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:194.8lbs

Weight loss so far: 40.2lbs

The vow-day 4

First of all,sorry for the short and somewhat crappy post yesterday. It was safe to say I was EXHAUSTED.

Today however was pretty productive. I worked in the morning and then cleaned most of the day. Ate pretty well. Greek yogurt for breakfast. Rice and chicken for lunch and dinner peanut butter sandwich. Add a hard boiled egg and you have my day.

I went for a small walk/run. Only went a mile. I couldn’t seem to get my balance on the treadmill at all. It really was hard for some reason. Too slow, too quick just all over. I really want one good run ya know? I just have to do it tomorrow. I will ROCK tomorrow’s run and my body has no choice.

Also tomorrow I need to finish packing and cleaning as well as touching base with a few teachers and actually teach in 309 tomorrow. It’ll be a blast.

I’m quite hungry right now and am fighting cravings so I’m drinking water and possibly debating a small snack. TBD later.

Happy weight loss! I know my scale is behaving itself =] I’m past the obesity point as well for a second time.yay!


Day 4

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:196.8lbs

Weight loss so far: 38.2lbs