I am finally home from camp. This place has meant the world to me. I have no idea where I would be without the people I have met there. Without them I can pretty much say I would not be the person I am today. I’m on such a camp high. I’m so so sad its over.
I am unpacked and showered(Yay!) While unpacking I saw the scale and out of curiosity I had to just do it. I weighed myself and I was 210lbs(ugh!) A bit disappointing but I have been eating like poop and not running. Oh well, that will all stop tomorrow and I can’t wait! I’ve missed it, but those runs are going to be pretty hard. Ew.
Its weird I am actually excited to start working out again. I’m going to weight myself again tomorrow morning before church just to see what my water weight is doing. Thanks to the weather I was downing it like no other, but I was also sweating. I tend to be heavier at night anyway. Oh well. Hope you’re well and having a blessed week!
So my scale is broke. Darn it! I have to go buy another one =( Why but college be so expensive?! But I am off to leave for a summer camp I work every year. Be back in a week.
My concerns are eating healthy without being able to take the time and prepare my own food. To count all the calories. I know I can still rock oatmeal and breakfast. Thank goodness. So that should help some. Then salads at dinner and smaller portions. Do any of you have tips for this situation? We have planed meals and in a mess hall but I really really don’t want this to be the reason I mess up. And I can’t even track it! ugh. I’m so nervous. Help weight loss friends!
So this post is going to be a little TMI. That means too much information, just to be clear for some of you. Nothing too graphic, and its not the focus…just..well. If you’re still reading great!
So my running slump has been killing me. Just very disheartening honestly. Since I felt like I was finally making progress. I finally caved after 4 bad runs in a row. I also needed to give my ankle and shin a break. The bruising is coming in quite nicely. I’ll add pictures at the end if any of you care to see the aftermath of being klutzy. But I swam and did abs and arms at the gym this morning. Eating better, since last night was kinda horrible. But I was talking to my roommate. She is a gorgeous in shape exercise science major who has always a runner, so I figure she might have some insight. But apparently the hardest time for a woman to run is the week she is ovulating. Or about the week or 2 before she starts her period(all depends). I did some online reading and a lot of posts actually agree with her. This was really nice to hear since I was just about done with running. So I’m just going to let it be for a bit and work out other ways. Plus my ankle will appreciate it.
On another note, I’ve had a rough patch with my guy and we are working on it, but things have become harder. He is being a bit distant and honestly…this time I didn’t earn it. =( But we are still together working things out. Why are relationships so hard?
Last night I realized though how much I really do emotionally eat. I never really considered myself an emotional eater, more someone who just binges too much and doesn’t know when to quit. In addition to not eating healthy things. But yesterday, after eating out(poorly might I add) I got home and said no more eating tonight. (It was pas 12am anyway)But I found myself binge eating after really bad cravings for salt and chocolate.Yay goldfish crackers and puppy chow. This craving came almost directly after a really emotional confrontation with my guy. Lately its happened a few times, when something is overwhelming more than anything and I find myself wanting to eat. Not because I’m hungry, I just want to eat a lot. But after I finished I just felt disappointed in myself and sadder. This also could be a combination of PMS, but I just was kind of disgusted with myself this morning. Usually I enjoy weighing myself,ups and downs, but today I avoided it knowing bad numbers would be there and I didn’t want to see it.
On a happier note, these next two nights in a row a few of my friends are coming to visit! I can’t wait ^.^ I’m so blessed with wonderful people in my life. This visiting is just what I need. =] Working all day and then I get to go home soon!
Also I’m prepping to work the summer camp for a week. I’ve attended growing up and now I counsel. Its crazy chaos, but I love it. Can’t wait!
Hope you’re all well and doing better on your diets than I am!