Meeting a trainer-Self consious

Spring break has given me a chance to focus on me, my diet, and exercise. Its great because during midterms there was no time and it wasn’t even a thought in my mind.

Today I am actually going to meet a trainer to see what we can do about my arms. Super excited but nervous all at the same time. I find myself getting those same feelings I had last summer when I first started working out. You know the feelings. The one saying everyone is judging you and how fat you are. That the trainer is grossed out by you. People at the gym are all staring…ect. I think this thought process is a large part of the cycle for obesity/overweight epidemic in America. Gyms are freaking scary and judgmental places for overweight people. Even if they’re not watching you, and no one probably really cares, it still feels that way. I will admit there are times I just hope I disappear into the corner during my run and no one will notice. Now, I can’t speak for everyone but it seems to be a recurrent theme with people new to exercise or just body conscious.  Anyway. Mini rant over.

I’m going at noon and am excited and trying to keep focused. But it doesn’t help that she described herself as short small blonde with blue eyes. She sounded super sweet on the phone but who wants to work out with Barbie? Seriously. I don’t know. Im just being insecure. I might love her. I need to just relax.

On the upside I’m back where I need to be and then some after my slip up! A full 51lbs off me! Thank goodness. Now to the gym!


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:184.0lb4

Weight loss so far: 51.0lbs

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Posted on March 5, 2013, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. Awesome! You will love the trainer thing. A trainer is the last one to judge, most of them take the job just because that’s what they want to do, help people who need it. Also as for the gym, I’m not saying there aren’t any judgmental people there (just like anywhere) but for the most part everyone is supportive and just appreciates effort. We are all there for a fairly common goal. Getting over insecurities is tough, but when you do that there are so many possibilities! Keep up the good work!

    • Thanks!
      It was actually a lot of fun. She was really nice and helped me more than I thought. She showed me how to improve and fix things I was already doing *cough weights* and new stuff I’ve never thought of. Thank you for the encouragement. Everyone’s comments just make me want to keep going and more often than not, I need it.

      • Glad you liked it, I figured you would! It definitely shows that you are serious about it and that’s great. Keep it up, you won’t regret it that’s for sure!

  2. Hello, It is so great to see that you have lost 50 lbs! It is strange because I am just now starting out and my start weight was 225 and I have gained 10 lbs and am at my peak weight. I was wondering how you started your transformation and if you have any tips for me? I feel like this time is different I just want to make sure I stick to it this time! At this point I would love to be down to 185 lbs!!! That is so great! Congratulations!

    • Check out my post about “things I use for weight loss” or something similar along those lines. I wrote it a few weeks back because a few people were asking me. Note I am NO professional, this is just what works for me. I initially started running. Then added weights and such in the gym based off of what I found on the internet. But I think the biggest thing is I taught myself HOW to eat. What to eat. Not just cutting calories. Granted I started out that way, but I can say it probably would have been a lot easier initially if I got to eat more even if was healthy things.
      Go luck!

  3. You’ve done an incredible job losing weight! If this is of any help, I think that people are too self-centered nowadays to pay much attention to others. I bet those extremely toned ladies on in the gym spend 99% of their time thinking if their butt looks its bets in those workout pants, and the less fit ones are in so much pain that all they can think about is when they get to be done 🙂 I have never been overweight (my BMI stopped 0.4 points below this mark when I decided to make some serious changes), so I have no way of knowing what you are going through, but I wish you the best of luck!

    • Thank you!
      All the support and kind words are welcomed. I won’t lie, this will probably be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. But it feels less impossible these days. In the end its worth doing. Good for you for staying active and healthy.

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