Meeting a trainer-Self consious
Spring break has given me a chance to focus on me, my diet, and exercise. Its great because during midterms there was no time and it wasn’t even a thought in my mind.
Today I am actually going to meet a trainer to see what we can do about my arms. Super excited but nervous all at the same time. I find myself getting those same feelings I had last summer when I first started working out. You know the feelings. The one saying everyone is judging you and how fat you are. That the trainer is grossed out by you. People at the gym are all staring…ect. I think this thought process is a large part of the cycle for obesity/overweight epidemic in America. Gyms are freaking scary and judgmental places for overweight people. Even if they’re not watching you, and no one probably really cares, it still feels that way. I will admit there are times I just hope I disappear into the corner during my run and no one will notice. Now, I can’t speak for everyone but it seems to be a recurrent theme with people new to exercise or just body conscious. Anyway. Mini rant over.
I’m going at noon and am excited and trying to keep focused. But it doesn’t help that she described herself as short small blonde with blue eyes. She sounded super sweet on the phone but who wants to work out with Barbie? Seriously. I don’t know. Im just being insecure. I might love her. I need to just relax.
On the upside I’m back where I need to be and then some after my slip up! A full 51lbs off me! Thank goodness. Now to the gym!
Peak Weight: 235lbs
Start Weight: 225lbs
Weight loss so far: 51.0lbs