Monthly Archives: July 2012

The vow-day 4

First of all,sorry for the short and somewhat crappy post yesterday. It was safe to say I was EXHAUSTED.

Today however was pretty productive. I worked in the morning and then cleaned most of the day. Ate pretty well. Greek yogurt for breakfast. Rice and chicken for lunch and dinner peanut butter sandwich. Add a hard boiled egg and you have my day.

I went for a small walk/run. Only went a mile. I couldn’t seem to get my balance on the treadmill at all. It really was hard for some reason. Too slow, too quick just all over. I really want one good run ya know? I just have to do it tomorrow. I will ROCK tomorrow’s run and my body has no choice.

Also tomorrow I need to finish packing and cleaning as well as touching base with a few teachers and actually teach in 309 tomorrow. It’ll be a blast.

I’m quite hungry right now and am fighting cravings so I’m drinking water and possibly debating a small snack. TBD later.

Happy weight loss! I know my scale is behaving itself =] I’m past the obesity point as well for a second time.yay!


Day 4

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:196.8lbs

Weight loss so far: 38.2lbs


The vow -day 3

Today got up and got dressed for the gym. But it doesn’t open until later on sundays.Oops. Went to church. Came home made lunch of leftovers! Yummy chinese food. Then lazed around. Just felt so exhausted today. Went for a small crappy run =/ But it’s better than not at all. Made a dinner or chicken and rice (same kind for yesterday). Just about to pass out. Tomorrow is an early run day. I’m debating going twice and cleaning. Possibly weight lift too!

Hope you’re all doing alright.


Day 3

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:197.4lbs

Weight loss so far: 37.6lbs

The Vow- Day 2

Today started rough. I could not for the life of me convince myself to get out of bed until 10. Lazed around and ate breakfast(greek yogurt) until 1130 and then convinced myself to get to the gym.

My run was pretty good for someone who hasn’t had a decent run for a week or so. I did a 5 minute warm up then ran at a 9:22 pace for a solid 12minutes then walked for 5 ran 5 walked 2 ran until I hit the 2.5mile mark. Then walked 1minute and ran the until 3.11miles(5K+). Then did a 5 min cool down…giving me these final results. At all points I was running at least 9:44. I refused to be a 10minute mile girl. Granted with walk averages I may have been more*shrug*


3.37miles! A safe amount over the 5K just in case the treadmill lies.

Lunch was fetichini Alfredo from a frozen meal and a strawberry smoothie! Who said eating good couldn’t be yummy? 1 up of strawberries and 6ice cubes. Adding some water as needed. Also on my lunch break I hard boiled eggs and set out some chicken to thaw for tomorrow.


Strawberry smoothie! yum and my best friend the Camelback water bottle.

I worked the desk from 3-9pm. Came home made dinner of turkey buyer and mexican rice. So yummy! Finally getting things done around here and organizing everything thank goodness.

What I’m missing out most on in my diet is “good fats” I eat peanut butter and sometimes almonds for snacks, but otherwise I need to figure out ways to rev the fats up. I would be grateful for your thoughts!

Before bed I tried doing this ab challege:

Its safe to say I felt the burn but I definitely struggled with more leg pain than abs.

Otherwise day 2 pretty okay overall


Day 2

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:200.2lbs

Weight loss so far: 34.8lbs

Work For It Vow

Hey all!

Here comes a reality check for me. In the past few days I have been eating nothing but crap. My cravings are up from it too. I haven’t been watching how much I’m intaking and not working out.

This next week is about to be nuts. I move, do my first ever 5K color(gah!) run , pack clean check out, unpack, have guest, take a test for a job, figure out my classes, apply a few places, and meet for a mission trip. Tonight I take a vow to eat clean and work out for exactly 10 days straight. No if, ands,or buts about it. To MAKE the time because school year will be this busy and I don’t want to slip anymore. I don’t care if it’s a crappy run. It is a run and I’m passing the people sitting on the couch! Starting tonight before bed. I am finishing organizing mostly and working out! Just to get going =]

So. This is me making a promise to myself. The next 10 days is my body’s boot camp. Working out. Eating Clean. Learning to love and celebrate the burn my body can create all over again. Here we go self. I will post everyday forcing myself to stay focused.

Feel free to join me and do the same!


Day 1

Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:200.4lbs

Weight loss so far: 34.6lbs

*Yikes I knew I gained again….=/*

Helpless-Pre 5K Color Run Freak Out

Hey everyone,

I’m just writing this post because I am semi freaking out about my 5K. Yes I have been running and I should be fine. But I keep having this doubting voice in the back of my head saying, “You can’t do this” and what if I can’t? Everyone will laugh. I’m going to be so disappointed in myself. I dunno. I’m really am scared, dreading it, and super pumped about it all at once. Also my stubborn weight loss is bumming me out too. I’ve actually gained a few pounds. (wtf?!) I have eaten just over 1200 calories a day and all very clean things fruits veggies oatmeal, making sure I’m getting protein. All good things.And I work out so I can eat over the 1200 diet but still am eating enough for my body to function. Yet I’m gaining weight?! I hate my body. Okay I shouldn’t say that. Body peace is goal here. Its just frustrating. I wouldn’t care if I just maintained even, but no, I’m gaining. I feel like the minute I’m not eating 1200 calories a day, I’m going to swell up like a balloon. =/ Its one of those days I just want to quit everything and not run and not do the 5K. =[

I wish I had some hope, but I feel absolutely helpless right now. =/


Summer Is One Big Blur

Anyone else think this summer has gone by WAY too fast?

I realized that I have 2 weeks until my life is reclaimed by housing. I work as a resident assistant for my university. Which I’m realizing I don’t want it to come. Not yet anyway! I want to loose more weight and come and go as I please. I love the unlimited possibility each day of freedom brings. I’m not ready for school and residents to take up my life =[

On the upside yesterday my mom came up for a fantastic visit! We went to the beach and she gave me lovely gifts from her trip to Africa. Then laid out and read. Got my hair cut. Went out to eat Sushi and found ourselves downtown at a Jazz festival. It was a fantastic visit. I miss her a lot.

Today I got up, ran. A bit reluctantly. Plan to do it again tonight actually. Went to class, and man do I LOVE for my cadaver lab. Its so fun to work with students and anatomy. Hopefully I will be working in the tutor lab next fall! Sending e-mails about that and research now. Trying to tie up all the loose ends.

Otherwise been having an okay week. Just trying to survive.

With peace,



Part of the reason I am keeping this anonymous is so I can complain/vent. I don’t really trust my coworkers here and most of my friends are home for the summer. However, both my coworkers and bosses SUCK. So much obvious favoritism going on that it’s driving me crazy. It’s ridiculous. You’d think your boss would try to be grown up, impartial, or professional. But not mine. Instead they talk about drinking with our underaged members and partying. Also, blatant annoyance with some staff members is not appropriate. When and in what world is it okay to talk about your employees you don’t like with their coworkers? Not their boss, or trying to figure out how to give constructive criticism. Just plain old taking crap. Guess they are living proof that some people never grow up.

Ugh. Wish I could quit but I need the housing. At least I love T.Aing for the college.


Breaking 200lbs!

Just a quick update. A few days ago the scale read the #’s 199.8lbs, but I didn’t want to say anything since I figured it might have been just a random dip. But I went to weigh myself today and I was 198.2! I can officially say I have broke 200lbs! Exciting pictures to be added once I figure out how to get them off my phone. I haven’t been this light since high school! That feels amazing to say. I can’t believe I have gotten this far at all. If I can get this far, I know that over time I can reach my ultimate goal. People are even noticing and asking if I have been loosing weight now. I freaking LOVE that people can physically see the difference. So happy. This is exactly what I needed after my break up with R.

Also, I think I have FINALLY broke my runners slump. I have ran 2 days in a row now and it has ROCKED both times. The first day I had a long distance and 10:31min mile pace over 2.55miles. (Long for me)While today I kept a 9:26pace for 1.2 miles. Yes its short but that was super fast for me. I have only one time (on record) have been faster than that, and it was a freak day. I am so happy! Tonight groceries shopping! Then some TV relax time and a dorm room work out.

I hope you’re all having a great day!

Grace and Peace Friends!


Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:198.2lbs

Weight loss so far: 36.8lbs



Goal setting

Goal setting is something that is important in all aspects

of life. Work, school, fitness, health, even fun things like sports and activities. Often time we find ourselves subconsciously setting goals and when we meet them we feel a sense of pride and accomplishment. Often we do this in things we are GOOD at. Things we know well and know we can do IF we push ourselves. But how do you set attainable goals if you DON’T know what you’re doing?

This is how I felt when I started loosing weight. I didn’t really know what was normal or how quickly I could improve. Personally, they key to staying on track (At least for me) with long term goals like my weight loss is picking small attainable goals. But I didn’t know WHAT was a “small goal”.

After some online research and sifting through the bullshit loose 5lbs in 5 days diets., I figured some things out. This time, I wanted it to be different. I wanted my weight loss to actually work. So I thought I should write my goals down, and I did. Here and on a piece of paper. In addition to the #’s I made lots of goals about physical ability. This way it wasn’t always about the # on the scale, but my fitness level. This helps me in times like now, when my body seems to be holding onto the extra few pounds quite tightly. It would be a lie if I said I wasn’t frustrated sometimes, or annoyed  that those extra few laps around the track felt like they did nothing for my body. However, I try to  focus on that I can actually now DO those extra few laps.

What I’m trying to say is, if you’re new to goal setting or just trying to readjust. Please set yourself up for success and give yourself goals that are just far enough from you that it takes work, but close enough that you can have that push to keep you going.



Peak Weight: 235lbs

Start Weight: 225lbs

Current Weight:200.8lbs

Weight loss so far: 34.2lbs

Broken Heart

Broken Heart

Hey all,

Sorry I haven’t really had much time to write any good posts.

If I was honest with myself, I’m not doing really well. My weight loss is staying steady. If anything I’m not loosing or gaining. Sitting at about 203lbs. My weight isn’t really what is upsetting me.

As of yesterday night I am single. They guy I’ve been dating for roughly 10months has split. I’m heartbroken to say the least. I’ll explain later. I just need to go lay down and sleep more. I miss him so much.

Just too sad.